Do you ever need to feel God? I don't mean the still small voice or Him moving in your life but feel the physicality of a great big hug from God?
I haven't written here in what seems like forever. Maybe it is the 6th anniversary that dad is gone that brought it on. It could have been a laundry list of other things but I feel like I have a tsunami of words to spill out. This week I needed to feel love. I didn't need praise or accolades, I just needed to feel words like arms wrapped around me saying I was enough, I was loved and it was because I was me, for no other reason than that. I sat here in the dark, headphones on, listening to music and writing on my business page.
I never write anywhere expecting anything in return. It is cathartic for me to spill out thoughts on paper or screen and I share them only in hoping what I am experiencing helps someone else in their walk. This week though, some of my fears have been paralyzing and have touched some deep rooted feelings I have learned to ignore. Funny how when all those things are coming to the surface every song, every quote and everyone that comes in your path is like a message from God.
These talks with my Father didn't start with me talking to God, it was me talking to my DAD! It was the adult me asking for his honey salve on a scrape that wounded my soul, it was crying out when the adult me fell off my horse and needed courage to get back on again. It was so easy to look to Heaven and cry out to my Dad, and then I started to hear from my Father. It was like my dad said, hey, talk to him, he knows what you need.
And isn't that where we need to be most of all? Asking an omniscient God, "What do I do now?" And the verse springs to mind, "Ask and it shall be given, seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened to you." So, I sit here feeling love surround me and know when I ask, seek and knock God will answer with what is best and this week I feel like he answered in a big way!
I hope God is coming through for you and that you are surrounded by the love you deserve just when you need it! Shine bright!
