Friday, November 11, 2016

Finding Fellowship with Foot Baths

I do not think it was by chance that the Bible study I am currently reading brought me to Ephesians 2. I may struggle to put into words how it correlated to my thoughts today but hopefully my best efforts will prove to be at least good enough.

I have to explain that Ephesians 2 talks about God's cleansing of our sins and his vision for our lives but it is one particular part that in reading a Bible study about visionaries I did not expect to stumble upon.  For months I have been trying to find a verse that spoke of something regarding a "foreigner in a foreign land" and I guess God did not mean for me to write about it until today because no matter my best efforts did not produce a single hit for that verse.  

I have to digress a little though...My dad, being the strong man of faith that he was, always told us to make sure we read the whole chapter a verse came from because religion can take scripture out of context and twist it to any belief.  So, when I read a Bible study I usually feel led to read the entire chapter the devotional references in order to get the full context of the scripture.  Today, of all days, I found the verse for which I had been searching.  Thankfully the verse was very much about being created as God's workmanship and our paths being ordained by his hand, but in reading further he talks about a time when we were without Christ.  I want to be honest in saying that the verses that followed spoke regarding the circumcised and uncircumcised, but the current application gave me pause.  In verse twelve it says "That at that time ye were without Christ, being aliens from the commonwealth of Israel, and strangers from the covenants of promise, having no hope, and without God in the world:"

Now, I have had many talks with my father, which is why I originally started this blog.  Now that my father is gone, I have the opportunity and blessing of being near my mother and having my own talks with her.  What you may not know is that my mother is an immigrant.  She has no accent, she does not speak very often of her background and by all accounts no one would ever know that she carried a greencard, a fascinating piece of paper I was always intrigued to see as a child.  Until my mother was in her 50's she was not allowed to vote because she was not a naturalized citizen.  I got to be present on that very proud day that she received her citizenship and it is a moment in my life I will never forget. See, mom grew up in the Netherlands, she was born during World War II and remembers various things about the war even as a very young child.   Her father fought in the war and, for reasons which are not clear, was placed in a concentration camp.  While he was there he was tested on and contracted tuberculosis which he would die of after returning home to his family after the war ended.  My grandmother married a man who lived in the United States and my mother traveled alone via airplane to the United States, the youngest immigrant to arrive by plane at the time.  Mom was not placed in an English as a second language classroom.  At nine years old she was integrated into the classroom and by immersing herself in the culture learned the things she needed to know.  Her mother was a master seamstress and helped support her girls by making custom clothing for people in the community.  She did masterful things like turning a dresser into several pieces of furniture and going to high end stores, examining clothing and making her own patterns out of newspaper.  She was the original meaning of 'breaking a glass ceiling',  She was an innovator, creative, hard working, desirous of independence and raising two beautiful young girls to be respectful, lovely women.  She saw America as a land of opportunity.  She saw Americans as part of the soldiers that fought to win World War II and bring her husband home. The most important thing that she did was instill in my mother a sense of respect and deep patriotism to our country.  I was blessed that my mother shared these sentiments and taught them to her children.

However, in this America, I feel like a foreigner in a foreign land, an alien in the commonwealth of our society.  Every day, despite my best efforts to ignore it, I hear of another shooting or another senseless murder that did not have to happen.  There is a mark on our land that needs cleansing, a revival of our souls that needs to occur.  It is as if "we the people" can no longer co-exist with one another.  I feel ashamed that any life is lost because of a senseless act of violence, and I want to address the problem without getting into a rhetoric about any current event because the reality is that it is a spiritual problem.  We have enveloped ourselves in a movie star lifestyle of having the most expensive car, the grandest house, the best technology, sending our kids out to be mini sports superstars, upgrading until our pocket books are so strapped that we are one disaster away from our castle crumbling down to the ground.  I feel lost.  I feel like a ship floating in the middle of an ocean and I do not know where I am.  I am not afraid to admit it. I feel like my faith sets me apart from others and makes me some kind of pariah if I say or do anything that is socially unacceptable to any other religion, creed, sexual orientation, race, income level, and the list could go on.  However, I read further in that chapter and God spoke words that we all need to remember, we need to reach out and let others know.  In verse 18 he says, "For through him we both have access by one Spirit unto the Father."  We can be one because we all have access to Christ and through him we can unite in peace, we only need to act on what God has already given us.  

Something I have seen in many of the negative interactions on the news is the picking of sides and determining that one group of people is right versus wrong.  It pains me to see that there does not seem to be anyone that wants to create a solution for any of the situations and the only people speaking up are those that have chosen their side.  This is where, today, I change my blog to Talks with my Mother.  Thank you, Jesus, for giving my momma a powerful spirit and a love for you. Today my mom said that for months now four words have been going through her head, she spoke of how those words had finally come into good use today.  It was not until I returned home and thought long and hard about her words that I truly appreciated their power.  In John 13 we read of the last supper and Jesus at one point got up from the table and washed all of the disciples' feet.  At this point he knew who would betray him, yet he washed his feet.  My mother's four words were "Jesus. Washed. Judas'. Feet."  What would happen if we began to wash the feet of our enemies?  What message would it send to those who had talked behind your back, hurt you deeply, betrayed you or to those that had done unspeakable things to you to see you drop to your knees, remove their shoes and wash their feet?  We need to learn to walk humbly with our God, because he humbled himself before the very person that was responsible for him being beaten and battered, hung on a cross and suffered a painful death.  Would any or as many of the problems exist in our world today if we humbled ourselves enough to wash the feet of our enemy, or what if we just washed the feet of someone who felt wronged by race or creed or lifestyle or religious practices?  What would happen if WE laid down OUR pride and humbled ourselves enough to perform a loving act of servitude to those we oppose?  Would it allow us all a chance to take a moment to stop and in the silence see that this hatred only creates more hatred?

In silence volumes are spoken.  Let this be a challenge that, instead of protest or hurtful words, you prostrate yourself before your opposition and silently wash their feet.


Sunday, March 27, 2016

The Strength to Rise

I always considered my dad to be the strongest man I knew.  I have often referred to him as a stalwart oak or my own version of John Wayne, and he was very much those pictures of a quiet, unmoving presence in my life.  I will never forget the day that I got a taste of where his strength came from because it had to be my strength.  On the day that would mark the beginning of my dad’s last battle with cancer he was scheduled for surgery to remove parts of his jawbone where a tumor was growing and to begin the next fight against this disease.  The surgeon returned to inform us that the cancer had spread and was more extensive than expected and more invasive surgery would need to be performed.  It all started to blur together at that point, nothing even seemed real.  Words that seemed Latin and courses of treatment and more surgery came like a rolling tide that never seemed to ebb.  At one point, dad ended up in the ICU because of the extent of his surgery and my mom, my sister and I where the first three people to see him. 

None of us were prepared for the sight of our much weakened father lying in that hospital bed.  We all said hello, talked to him in his unconscious state, and my mom and sister quietly cried behind a curtain out of his hearing and sight.  I couldn’t cry.  At that moment I knew I had to be strong, I don’t even know for what now, but I didn’t shed a tear.  Now many would say, no big deal, right?  Except I am a cry baby, always have been.  Every time something overwhelming would happen in my life, I cried and my dad would say “Steph, why are you crying over something you can’t change?  Crying won’t fix anything.”  I remember thinking, with teenage attitude of course, that if crying wouldn’t fix it then what would?  Those words reverberated in my head, standing in that cold white room staring at the strongest man I knew wage the battle for his life.

Yesterday, my family was invited to attend a Resurrection Pageant that followed Jesus’ walk in Jerusalem to his crucifixion.  It started out traversing through a busy marketplace to an outdoor message and miraculous healings from the actor portraying Jesus.  As the pageant progressed it reminded me of an important example to us all of stalwart strength and unmoving spirit.  In an age where political correctness and fairness reign above all, we often forget the pain Christ suffered to the cross.  Imagine, knowing you are the Son of the most Almighty, that you have legions of angels that with one word would destroy earth to rescue you and yet you remain to be beaten with leather straps laced with barbs that tore away flesh; a crown of long, sharp thistles was pushed deep into your scalp.  After being weakened from these beatings, you are brought to bear an impossibly heavy cross up a hill to your death, falling under its weight, only to be beaten to continue.  Once atop that hill spikes are pounded, with each drive of a hammer, further into your wrists and ankles, as the full weight of your body bears down on these already tender wounds.  People stand to ridicule you as you wait for the end, for Christ to bear all our transgressions and become so hideous his Father forsook him. 

It is too much for this Cry Baby to bear.  Only Christ had the strength to bear that kind of fear, that kind of humiliation, that kind of pain.  He knew ME in ALL of my sin and chose to selflessly and blamelessly bear the stupid things I do upon his body.  Each drive of that spike was for something not worthy of that suffering, but HE felt the need to offer me salvation.  Each of us bear unbelievable sin, we bear the guilt of things past and present, and Christ, in the most selfless of love, bore all of it for us that we may be worthy to look on God’s face when we die.  This Cry Baby figured out where that strength came from, it came from God.  Only God can take the most impossible of situations and turn it into something beautiful.  It is not in our own strength as humans that we bear the weight of what the world asks us to carry.

Something even more miraculous happened three days later, Christ AROSE!  As a symbol of God’s victory over our sin, he allowed victory over death and Christ was risen.  When we, in all of our sin, come to Christ for forgiveness and ask for his salvation, our souls rise out of the darkness and into the light of God’s love.  Today, as you travel to Easter service or hunt eggs or gather around family, remember that this entire weekend is symbolic of God’s love for you, even in the most darkened corners of your life, God can shine his light and make you whole.  The strength I found when I lost my dad was that he was seeing God’s face, that he was whole and rejoicing in Heaven. 

I leave you with a chapter, I couldn’t choose a verse because each part is so important, Isaiah 53 (KJV):
1Who hath believed our report? and to whom is the arm of the Lord revealed?https://www.bible.com/assets/footnote.png
2For he shall grow up before him as a tender plant, and as a root out of a dry ground: he hath no form nor comeliness; and when we shall see him, there is no beauty that we should desire him.
3He is despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief: and we hid as it were our faces from him; he was despised, and we esteemed him not.https://www.bible.com/assets/footnote.png
4Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted.
5But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.https://www.bible.com/assets/footnote.pnghttps://www.bible.com/assets/footnote.png
6All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned every one to his own way; and the Lord hath laid on him the iniquity of us all.https://www.bible.com/assets/footnote.png
7He was oppressed, and he was afflicted, yet he opened not his mouth: he is brought as a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before her shearers is dumb, so he openeth not his mouth.
8He was taken from prison and from judgment: and who shall declare his generation? for he was cut off out of the land of the living: for the transgression of my people was he stricken.https://www.bible.com/assets/footnote.pnghttps://www.bible.com/assets/footnote.png
9And he made his grave with the wicked, and with the rich in his death; because he had done no violence, neither was any deceit in his mouth.https://www.bible.com/assets/footnote.png
10Yet it pleased the Lord to bruise him; he hath put him to grief: when thou shalt make his soul an offering for sin, he shall see his seed, he shall prolong his days, and the pleasure of the Lord shall prosper in his hand.https://www.bible.com/assets/footnote.png
11He shall see of the travail of his soul, and shall be satisfied: by his knowledge shall my righteous servant justify many; for he shall bear their iniquities.

12Therefore will I divide him a portion with the great, and he shall divide the spoil with the strong; because he hath poured out his soul unto death: and he was numbered with the transgressors; and he bare the sin of many, and made intercession for the transgressors.